929 (Tanakh) · Thinking of Converting · Standard
Judges 1
Hook
The journey of conversion (gerut) is often romanticized as a sudden, luminous moment of arrival—a singular crossing of a boundary, symbolized by the cool waters of the mikveh. But anyone who has set foot on this path knows that the reality is far more complex, beautiful, and demanding. It is a transition from a life of singular self-determination to a life of covenantal responsibility. It is a slow, step-by-step process of claiming an inheritance that is at once promised to you and yet must be actively built, settled, and defended.
This is why the Book of Judges (Shoftim) is one of the most vital, honest, and grounding texts a prospective convert can study.
As you stand at the threshold of the Jewish people, looking inward, you are likely wrestling with a profound question: How do I inhabit a heritage that is not mine by birth, but which I feel called to make my own? Judges 1 does not offer easy platitudes. Instead, it provides a gritty, realistic, and deeply encouraging blueprint for how we claim our spiritual territory. It speaks of a time when the great, unifying leader Joshua has passed away, and the people of Israel must transition from being led by miracles to taking personal, tribal responsibility for their lives in the Land of Promise.
For you, as someone discerning a Jewish life, this text is a mirror. It asks you to look at the "allotted territory" of your soul—the mitzvot, the Hebrew language, the rhythms of the Jewish calendar, the demands of communal life—and understand that while this path is a gift, it must be claimed through conscious, daily effort. It is a journey of holy struggle, of forming alliances, of learning to dwell in tension, and of trusting that the Divine Presence walks with you as you conquer the "unconquered" spaces of your life.
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Context
To understand why the opening chapter of Judges is so critical for a modern seeker of gerut, we must ground ourselves in its historical, theological, and practical context.
- The Paradigm of Transition: The Book of Judges begins immediately after the death of Joshua. Under Moses and Joshua, the Israelites lived in a state of highly structured, centralized guidance. The wilderness was a time of open miracles—manna from heaven, pillars of fire, and direct, unmediated leadership. But with Joshua’s death, that era ends. The people must now learn to live as an adult nation. They must govern themselves, fight their own battles, and maintain their covenant with God through their own initiative. For a candidate for conversion, this mirrors the transition from the structured, highly supervised phase of initial study under a sponsoring rabbi to the lifetime of independent, self-motivated Jewish observance. Eventually, you step out of the classroom, and you must live the covenant on your own terms.
- The Geography of the Soul: In Judges 1, we encounter a map of incomplete conquest. The tribes of Israel have been allocated specific territories by lot, but those territories are still inhabited by other nations. The land is theirs, yet it is not yet theirs. This paradox lies at the very heart of the halakhic process of conversion. Through the beit din (rabbinical court) and the mikveh (ritual bath), a convert is formally declared a full member of the Jewish people, inheriting the spiritual "allotment" of Abraham and Sarah. Yet, the internal work of "conquering" one's old habits, reframing one's worldview, and fully integrating into the Jewish community is a lifelong process. The mikveh is the legal acquisition of the territory; the rest of your life is the settling of it.
- The Reality of Community and Alliance: Throughout this chapter, we see that no single tribe can inhabit their inheritance alone. Judah must call upon Simeon; Caleb must rely on Othniel; the descendants of Jethro (the Kenite, Moses' father-in-law, who is the biblical archetype of the convert) must travel and settle alongside the children of Judah. This text teaches us that Jewish identity is never lived in isolation. It is an interconnected web of mutual responsibility. As you navigate the conversion process, you will discover that you cannot do this alone. You need a community—a "brother-tribe"—to stand with you, to teach you, and to help you carry the beautiful weight of the commandments.
Text Snapshot
The following lines from the opening of Judges lay the foundation for our exploration of what it means to claim a covenantal identity:
"After the death of Joshua, the Israelites inquired of God, 'Which of us shall be the first to go up against the Canaanites and attack them?' God replied, 'Let [the tribe of] Judah go up. I now deliver the land into their hands.' Judah then said to their brother-tribe Simeon, 'Come up with us to our allotted territory and let us attack the Canaanites, and then we will go with you to your allotted territory.' So Simeon joined them." — Judges 1:1-3
Close Reading
To study Torah as a Jew—or as someone seeking to join the Jewish people—is to enter into an ongoing, multi-generational conversation. We do not read the text in a vacuum; we read it through the eyes of the sages and commentators who have spent centuries unpacking its layers of meaning. Let us examine the opening verses of Judges 1 through the insights of our great commentators, exploring how their explanations speak directly to the spiritual psychology of the prospective convert.
Insight 1: The Dynamics of the "Lot" versus the "Conquest"
In the opening verse of our text, the Israelites ask a fundamental question: "Who shall go up for us against the Canaanites first?" Judges 1:1
To understand the depth of this question, we must look at the commentary of Rashi (Rabbi Shlomo Yitzchaki, the preeminent 11th-century French commentator). Rashi, commenting on the phrase "Who shall go up for us against the Canaanites?", writes:
אל המצרים אשר הפילו גורלות... "To the territories for which lots were cast by Joshua, Eleazar, and the tribal chieftains (Joshua 14:1,2)... but are as yet unconquered."
Rashi points us back to the Book of Joshua, reminding us that the land had already been divided by divine "lot" (goral). Each tribe had a specific, divinely ordained portion of the land assigned to them. Yet, despite the fact that the land was theirs by divine decree, Rashi notes that these territories were "as yet unconquered."
This is a profound paradox that lies at the very core of the conversion process. When a person feels a deep, persistent pull toward Judaism, Jewish tradition teaches that their soul was present at the giving of the Torah at Mount Sinai (as explored in the Talmud, Shevuot 39a). Your desire to convert is not an accident; it is your goral—your spiritual lot, your divinely assigned inheritance. You are drawn to a specific territory of the soul that has your name on it.
However, Rashi’s insight is that having a "lot" assigned to you is not the same as inhabiting it. The territory of Jewish life—the mastery of Hebrew, the discipline of keeping kosher, the emotional resilience required to stand with a historically persecuted people, the intellectual rigor of Torah study—is "as yet unconquered." You cannot simply claim, "I feel Jewish in my heart," and leave it at that. The goral must be translated into כיבוש (kibush—conquest, or active effort).
The 13th-century commentator Radak (Rabbi David Kimhi) echoes this sentiment in his brief but potent comment on the same verse:
מי יעלה לנו. לכבוש את הארץ אשר נשארה להכבש: "Who shall go up for us: To conquer the land that remained to be conquered."
Radak focuses on the word "remained" (nesh'arah). There is always a remainder. No matter how much you learn, no matter how many books you read or how many Shabbat meals you attend, there will always be aspects of Jewish life that remain to be integrated. This is not a sign of failure; it is the very nature of the covenant. The path of conversion is a step-by-step reclamation of your spiritual homeland. It is an honest, sometimes slow, and highly deliberate process of taking territory, area by area, mitzvah by mitzvah.
Insight 2: The Collective "Us" and the Psychology of the First Step
When the Israelites ask, "Who shall go up for us?", they are using the plural pronoun "us" (lanu), even though, as the text later reveals, each tribe was ultimately responsible for fighting for its own specific geographic portion.
The 18th-century commentary Metzudat David (Rabbi David Altschuler) addresses this linguistic nuance with a beautiful insight into the nature of Jewish solidarity:
מי יעלה לנו. עם כי כל אחד נלחם בעבור חלקו, אמר ׳לנו׳, כי כאשר יעלה מי מהם בהכנעני ויגבר עליו, יביא המורך בלבם והתועלת לכולם: "Who shall go up for us: Even though each one fought for his own portion, they said 'for us' (plural), because when any one of them goes up against the Canaanites and overcomes them, it instills fear in their [the enemies'] hearts and brings benefit to everyone."
According to the Metzudat David, the success of one tribe is the success of all. When Judah wins a battle in his southern territory, it weakens the resolve of the adversaries in the north, benefiting the tribe of Asher or Naphtali.
This is the essence of Jewish peoplehood (Klal Yisrael). When you embark on the path of conversion, you are not engaging in a private, individualistic spiritual self-improvement project. You are joining a collective. Your struggles and your victories do not occur in a vacuum. When a prospective convert works hard to learn Hebrew, to create a Jewish home, to act with ethical integrity, and to pray with sincerity, they are not just elevating their own soul—they are bringing "benefit to everyone."
Conversely, this means you do not have to carry the weight of this transition entirely on your own shoulders. You are part of an "us." The spiritual achievements of the Jewish people throughout the generations are there to support you. When you stand before the beit din, you are not standing as an isolated individual; you are asking to be woven into a tapestry of mutual responsibility where your victories strengthen the entire nation, and the nation's history strengthens you.
The Ralbag (Rabbi Levi ben Gershon, the 14th-century philosopher and commentator), takes this concept of collective psychology even further. Commenting on Judges 1:1, he writes:
ספר שאחרי מות יהושע שאלו בני ישראל בה' ר"ל באורים ותומים... "He relates that after the death of Joshua, the children of Israel inquired of the Lord—meaning through the Urim and Thummim—which of the tribes should go up first to fight... and perhaps the meaning is that after Joshua's death they needed to ask who would go up first, because the first battle is of great foundational importance for the rest of the battles. This is because if Israel were defeated in the first battle, the remaining nations would say 'their protection has departed from them' and they would strengthen themselves to fight them. But if Israel defeats them, this matter will cast fear into the hearts of those nations, and Israel will defeat them easily. Therefore, God chose the one who was most worthy to win to fight first, which was the tribe of Judah..."
The Ralbag introduces a powerful psychological principle: the critical importance of the first step. The first battle sets the tone for everything that follows. If the first step is successful, it builds momentum, confidence, and a sense of divine favor. If the first step fails, it breeds doubt, hesitation, and vulnerability.
For someone exploring conversion, the Ralbag’s insight is incredibly validating. The early stages of your journey—your "first battles"—are often the most intimidating. The first time you walk into a synagogue where you don't know anyone, the first time you try to read a Hebrew blessing out loud, the first time you explain to your non-Jewish family why you are choosing this path—these moments carry immense psychological weight.
God chooses the tribe of Judah to go first because Judah represents strength, leadership, and praise (the name Yehudah comes from the root odeh, meaning to give thanks or acknowledge). To navigate the intimidating "firsts" of your conversion journey, you must summon your inner "Judah." You must lead with gratitude, acknowledge your vulnerability, and take that first step with courage, knowing that a successful first step will build the spiritual momentum you need to conquer the rest of the path.
Insight 3: The Grammar of Transition and the Long Road
Let us look at a fascinating, highly technical comment by the Minchat Shai (Rabbi Yedidiah Solomon Raphael ben Abraham Norzi, a 17th-century authority on the Masoretic text of the Hebrew Bible). On the very first word of the book, "Vayehi" (And it was), he writes:
ויהי. טעם המלה רביעי והו"ו במאריך: "And it was: The cantillation mark (ta'am) of the word is revia, and the letter vav is with a ma'arikh (extension)."
To the untrained eye, this seems like a dry grammatical note about how to chant the word. But in the world of Jewish commentary, grammar is the key to the soul.
The word Vayehi ("And it was") is noted by the Talmudic sages (Megillah 10b) as almost always introducing a narrative of grief, tension, or transition (deriving homiletically from the word vai, meaning "woe" or "alas"). The transition from the unified, miraculous leadership of Joshua to the chaotic, decentralized era of the Judges was a painful, anxious time for Israel. They were stepping into the unknown.
The Minchat Shai notes that the cantillation mark on this word is a revia (which means "fourth," a restrictive, pausing note), and the vav is pronounced with a ma'arikh—a musical extension or lengthening.
This is a beautiful metaphor for the tempo of conversion. The path of gerut is not a sprint; it is characterized by the ma'arikh—an extension, a drawing out. It takes time. Halakha deliberately slows the conversion process down. Rabbis are instructed to initially discourage candidates, not out of cruelty, but to ensure that the candidate has the time to experience the full cycle of the Jewish year, to sit with the difficult questions, and to allow their new identity to gestate naturally.
If you are feeling frustrated by how long your conversion process is taking, or if you feel like you are in a painful state of suspension—no longer who you used to be, but not yet legally a Jew—remember the Minchat Shai. The transition (Vayehi) requires an extension (ma'arikh). This slow tempo is not an obstacle; it is a kindness. It protects you from making a hasty commitment and allows you to build the deep, resilient roots necessary to sustain a Jewish life.
Insight 4: Organic Partnerships and the Sincerity of the Heart
Finally, let us examine the question raised by the Malbim (Meir Leibush ben Yehiel Michel Wisser, a 19th-century Eastern European rabbi and commentator) on Judges 1:1:
השאלות: למה לא שאלו זאת עד עתה מי העולה בתחלה? ולמה אמר לשמעון ולא לשבט אחר? "The Questions: Why did they not ask this until now: 'who is the one to go up first?' And why did Judah speak to Simeon and not to another tribe?"
The Malbim asks two critical questions: Why did this question of "who goes first" only arise after Joshua's death? And why, when God chose Judah, did Judah immediately turn to the tribe of Simeon to form an alliance?
The answer to the first question lies in the shift of responsibility. During Joshua's life, the leader made the decisions. After his death, the people had to ask for themselves. They had to take ownership of their relationship with the Divine.
The answer to the second question is found in the geography of the land. The territory allotted to the tribe of Simeon was located entirely within the larger territory of Judah (as described in Joshua 19:1). Their inheritances were geographically and existentially intertwined. Judah recognized that they could not fully secure their own borders without helping Simeon secure theirs.
In your conversion journey, you will find that you cannot navigate this path alone. You cannot simply read books in your room and declare yourself a Jew. You must find your "Simeon"—your partner, your community, your study partner (chavrusa), your local congregation. Your spiritual life is intertwined with theirs.
This is why a beit din will never convert someone who lives in total isolation from a Jewish community. They want to see that you have built organic relationships, that you have a "Simeon" to walk with you into your allotted territory, and that you are ready to walk with them in theirs.
Lived Rhythm
Now that we have explored the deep theological and psychological underpinnings of Judges 1, we must ask: How do we translate this into daily life? How do you, as someone discerning conversion, begin to claim your "allotted territory" this week?
Here is a concrete, step-by-step plan to help you establish a "rhythm of conquest" in your daily life, using the text of Judges as our guide.
Step 1: Claim Your "Allotment" Through Brachot (Blessings)
In Judges 1, the land is won not through one massive, overwhelming battle, but through localized, specific engagements. In Jewish life, we sanctify our world in the same way—one small moment at a time. The primary way we do this is through the practice of reciting brachot (blessings).
A blessing is a verbal boundary marker. It declares that the physical thing you are about to enjoy—a piece of bread, a cup of water, the morning light—belongs to the Creator, and that you are consuming it in holiness.
- Your Action Step: This week, choose one specific category of blessing to master and integrate into your daily routine. Do not try to learn them all at once (remember the ma'arikh—the slow extension!).
- Where to Start: Start with the blessing over bread (Hamotzi) or the blessing over water/non-agricultural foods (Shehakol Nihyah Bidvaro).
- The Practice: Before you eat or drink, pause. Do not rush. This pause is your "first battle." Recite the blessing slowly, focusing on the meaning of the words:
בָּרוּךְ אַתָּה ה', אֱלֹהֵינוּ מֶלֶךְ הָעוֹלָם, שֶׁהַכֹּל נִהְיָה בִּדְבָרוֹ. Baruch atah Adonai, Eloheinu Melech ha-olam, she-hakol nihyah bi-dvaro. "Blessed are You, Lord our God, King of the Universe, through Whose word everything comes into being."
- By doing this, you are doing exactly what Radak spoke of: you are conquering the "unconquered" moments of your day and claiming them for holiness.
Step 2: Seek the "Springs of Water" (Shabbat)
In Judges 1:14-15, we encounter a beautiful, intimate story. Caleb’s daughter, Achsah, is given in marriage to the warrior Othniel. As she goes to her new home, she dismounts from her donkey and makes a bold request of her father:
"She replied, 'Give me a present, for you have given me away as Negeb-land [dry, arid land]; give me springs of water.' And Caleb gave her Upper and Lower Gulloth [springs]."
This is a stunning metaphor for the spiritual life. The dry, dusty, demanding work of the week—the "Negeb-land" of our daily struggles, our jobs, our anxieties—can leave our souls parched. If we only focus on the struggle, we wither. We need "springs of water" (gullot mayim) to keep us alive.
In Jewish tradition, the ultimate spring of water is Shabbat.
- Your Action Step: If you are in the beginner-to-intermediate stage of your conversion journey, do not attempt to keep a fully halakhic Shabbat immediately (which is actually halakhically restricted for non-Jews). Instead, focus on creating "springs of water" by introducing Shabbat rhythms into your home.
- The Practice:
- The Friday Night Transition: At sunset on Friday, turn off your phone, laptop, and television for at least a few hours. This is your "Upper Gulloth."
- Light Candles: Light two candles (or observe your local community doing so) to mark the transition from the dry week to the sacred spring of Shabbat.
- A Festive Meal: Have a special meal on Friday night. Use a nice tablecloth, pour a glass of kosher wine or grape juice, and eat delicious food.
- The Saturday Rest: Spend Saturday reading Jewish books, walking in nature, or attending synagogue services. This is your "Lower Gulloth."
- Let Shabbat be the spring that waters the dry land of your week.
Step 3: Map the Land (A Structured Learning Plan)
The tribes of Israel could not conquer the land without a map. Similarly, you cannot enter the Jewish covenant without a clear, structured understanding of Jewish history, law, and theology.
- Your Action Step: Set aside 15–30 minutes every single day for structured Jewish study.
- The Practice: Do not just browse the internet aimlessly. Create a curriculum. Your study should focus on three pillars:
- Halakha (Jewish Law): Read a basic guide to Jewish practice, such as To Be a Jew by Rabbi Hayim Halevy Donin, or The Jewish Home by Rabbi Shmuel Khelemer.
- Torah (The Weekly Parsha): Read the weekly Torah portion with Rashi's commentary. Use Sefaria or a physical Chumash (like the Stone Edition or the Gutnick Chumash).
- History: Read a comprehensive history of the Jewish people, such as Crash Course in Jewish History by Rabbi Ken Spiro.
- Write down your questions. Keep a journal of your doubts, your insights, and your moments of connection. This journal will be invaluable when you eventually sit before the beit din.
Community
In Judges 1:3, Judah says to Simeon: "Come up with us... and we will go with you."
This is the absolute, non-negotiable law of Jewish life: Judaism cannot be practiced in solitude. You cannot be a "Jew in the pews" who slips in and out without anyone knowing your name. To be a Jew is to be part of a family, with all the warmth, messiness, and responsibility that entails.
[ Prospective Convert ]
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│ Sponsoring Rabbi │ <─── (Guides through Halakha & study)
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│ Local Community │ <─── (Shabbat meals, services, lifecycle)
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▼ (Culminates in)
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│ Beit Din │ <─── (Evaluates sincerity & communal fit)
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Here is how you can actively build your "alliance" with the Jewish community this week:
1. Approach a Sponsoring Rabbi
The most critical relationship in your conversion journey is with your sponsoring rabbi. This is the person who will guide your study, monitor your progress, and ultimately present you to the beit din.
- The Reality Check: Do not be discouraged if a rabbi does not immediately embrace you with open arms. Historically, rabbis are supposed to turn a prospective convert away three times to test their sincerity (based on the biblical dialogue between Naomi and Ruth). While many modern rabbis do not literally reject seekers three times, they will certainly test your commitment by seeing if you are willing to do the hard work of attending services, studying, and changing your lifestyle.
- Your Next Step: If you have not yet done so, contact a local Orthodox, Conservative, or Reform rabbi (depending on the path of gerut you are seeking). Send a polite, concise email stating who you are, what your journey has been so far, and asking for a 15-minute meeting to discuss learning opportunities.
2. Find Your "Chavrusa" (Study Partner)
In the Jewish world, we do not study Torah alone. We study in pairs, a practice known as chavrusa study.
- The Practice: Look for a study group at a local synagogue, or use online platforms like Partners in Torah or TorahMates to be paired with a mentor.
- The Benefit: Having a chavrusa gives you a peer-to-peer connection. It gives you someone to ask "silly" questions, someone to practice Hebrew with, and someone to hold you accountable to your learning goals. It is the literal fulfillment of Judah's invitation to Simeon: "Come up with us... and we will go with you."
3. Step Into the Synagogue Space
You must physically show up.
- The Practice: Attend services regularly, even if you do not understand all the Hebrew. Sit quietly, follow along in the transliterated prayer book (Siddur), and observe the choreography of the service—when people stand, when they bow, how they interact.
- The Kiddush Connection: Do not skip the Kiddush (the social gathering with food after morning services). This is where the real work of community integration happens. Introduce yourself to people. Tell them you are learning about Judaism. You will be amazed at how quickly invitations to Shabbat meals will follow once people see your sincerity and consistency.
Takeaway
The Book of Judges begins with a question: "Who shall go up for us?" It ends, chapters later, with the famous and tragic observation that "in those days there was no king in Israel; everyone did what was right in their own eyes" (Judges 21:25).
This arc is a warning and a promise for your conversion journey.
If you attempt to walk this path entirely on your own terms, doing "what is right in your own eyes," without the grounding of halakha, without the guidance of a rabbi, and without the accountability of a community, you will likely find yourself lost in the wilderness of subjective spirituality.
But if you choose the path of the covenant—if you accept the discipline of the "allotted territory," if you seek the "springs of water" of Shabbat, and if you form deep, loving alliances with the Jewish people—you will find a life of unparalleled depth, beauty, and purpose.
Your desire to join the Jewish people is a holy spark. It is your goral—your destiny. But remember the wisdom of Rashi: the land is yours, but it is "as yet unconquered."
Do not rush the process. Embrace the ma'arikh—the long, patient extension of this transition. Take that first step with the courage of Judah. Build your alliances with the sincerity of Simeon. And trust that the God of Israel, who has watched over this stubborn, beautiful, eternal family for thousands of years, is walking with you every single step of the way.
Welcome to the struggle. Welcome to the covenant. Welcome home.
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